Wishes from above

Trapped in the void of my mind, seeking for a way out of this nightmare that is your love. All dark around me, no light in sight and I still have the little hope of escaping. There's no more ways of saying this or more easy tracks to sing to you while you're asleep: your love is like a spiders web, keeping me trapped and not letting me escape, taking all my life with just one kiss that takes me to the stars and back. How hard can it be to let you go when all the pain in my face is caused by you? How easy would it be if you just let me be myself and keep my sorrow in your arms, when you're laying in bed trying to sleep and dream with me.
Dump your bear in the trash and let me hug you like there's only one tomorrow and no more today. Take the midnight train back to your home, far away from my heart and from the wishes from the heaven, form revenges in your mind and sell your soul to the devil for just one more chance of love with me. Take the life from my body but you'll know that my soul will never rest in your lap and my wounds will never be healed by your hands. Take notes of all the things we said and what they meant for no more your tears will keep this flame of love alive.
From the deep of my heart these words fly like arrows, piercing my heart for your love as only brought pain and sorrow and made me look much older, and the sacrifices that I made for you were only the key to the gates of Hell when I finally rest and land on the lap of the Gods. Hold my hand as I fall from this earth to the deep of Hell into the hands of the Devil. While I watch my body on fire, I see you in the bloody-red water of Hell living the life of a sinner and then, just then, I realise that it's your life that has brought me into Hell and that you'll be with me once again. So once again and for the last time I make a sacrifice for you so you'll never see the red of the flames of Hell and you'll never suffer again.
You're in Heaven where Hell should be for once again my sacrifice was in vain and my head is empty just for you.

Aquarius

Da dor tu te ergues-te comigo sempre na escuridão a apoiar-te. Saber o gosto amargo da traição é deveras doloroso, de tal forma doloroso que um humano sozinho não conseguirá aguentar. Para isso existem os amigos e essa é a sua definição. Amigos servem para partilhar alegria, dor, prazer ou a amargura da vida. Nesta vida há vários caminhos, todos dolorosos e árduos mas com os teus amigos ao teu lado conseguirás chegar à meta final.

Minas e explosivos, canhões carregados prestes a explodir, no fim e na guerra apenas uma memória te restará nem que com apenas um braço te consigas movimentar. De todo o sofrimento que deixas em todos nós ao ficares apenas com uma mente obstruída sei eu, porém, que qualquer dia o Sol virá e brilhará apenas para te limpar a escuridão da cabeça. Dos raios de luz vindos do Sol pela manhã até ao luar à noite eu te acompanho apenas vendo na tua cara uma dor insuportável e maior que este mundo.

Terás ainda amigos quando partires? Terás apenas amigos quando eu partir? Nas sombras eu me pergunto e nos cantos obscuros da tua mente eu me alimento da tua dor que me fortalece e que te leva a ficar mais leve e mais alegre.

Mostra-me como se vive quando a escuridão nos assola e mesmo assim resistimos ao único impulso que nos vem à mente: a morte. Mostra-me como se vive quando nem os nossos amigos aguentam com a dor que lhes pomos nas costas e que nos voltam as costas deixado-nos sozinhos na escuridão a ser o que somos e lentamente a sermos consumidos pelo diabo.

Como consegue alguém viver em paz e em conforto quando tudo à nossa volta nos traí e que a nossa própria mente nos ilude.

Solta-me de tais pensamentos e abre-me a mente a uma nova porta nesta vida. Muitos foram os autores de livros escritos no passado que disseram que esta vida e este mundo são cruéis. terão eles razão ou serão eles apenas mais vítimas das ilusões da nossa mente? Será correcto criticar as suas obras sem saber o que está por detrás delas ou conseguiremos mesmo compreender o que os levou a escrever tais blasfémias?

Aquarius meu amigo sobreviverás a tal mundo cruel escrito em páginas do tempo?? E se conseguires ajudar-me-às também a sobreviver-las?

Para o meu amigo Aquarius que leva uma vida que qualquer pessoa inveja pois tem o poder de superá-la e superiolizá-la sozinho. És o maior!!

Love

"Death in the air, strapped in the electric chair" - see how the feelings that run through me take me to say such words. Though those aren't my words. Those words are from Metallica in the music "Ride the Lightning" but they do describe how I feel right now. Because I'm in a position so delicate that even right now Death seems like a easy way out. Say what's best this time, because now my brain it's drained from my head and it seems like a little peanut. It's sorrow I see before my eyes or is it only the pain that the coming day brings me? I know for sure that I want to be with you, but the distance still tears us apart. Only know from my part that I love you but I'm still in doubt about yours.
By only seconds I missed our first kiss and I'm still in pain because of it. Wherever you may go or whenever you come back, be aware that I'll be thinking about you though I know I'm not the only one. I'll fight, I'll bleed, Hell and Heaven I'LL GO TO WAR for you. "Son,..." my father told me "to die for your love is the same to die for the greater good of whom you believe". I'm still thinking of these words still searching of the meaning of them.
Can we please have a moment for I know that this love will not last. Too many things against me and you and our love. If so why not give it up right now? I can answer that question: It's better to die for the love that you thought impossible than to just give it up and spend the rest of you life thinking about it. Say your prayers and go to bed my angel for I'm the one that will be watching and keeping you safe during the night. For I'm the demon that you see in your dreams and that makes laugh, cry and believe. I make you live in the ways that you thought that were to painfully to imagine.
Love can I say to you that you're in my dreams and that I think about you all the time? Love can I speak really loud to the worlds that my love for you goes to the forgotten lands? And love can I say that you're what you are and that it doesn't matter what others say or think about you? Wish what you want and pray all that you can for your god is on Earth to correct the wrong things in life so we'll be more afraid of Death. Say that you like right straight to your friends for that is what I want and that is my way of saying I love you.

The pit

Darkness is here, fight or die. Sinking in the pit of death and going nowhere with these thoughts. Love's a road to the pit and all the things you say and all the things you do can't matter any less. Sink now because in the darkness I wait you and so do your friends. Your friends, the demons, the one's that are with you when you're afraid in the dark, sensing that you're being watched. But you are, by them. They're protecting from the things that may take you away from the road to the pit. They protect though you think that they're bad and evil. Keep away those thoughts for here I am, in the deepest and darkest corner of your room watching you breathing hardly and not sleeping. Please don't, just don't. Don't turn on the light for you cannot see me, ever, and you cannot feel me as much as you want. Turn the road and die. Death in your dreams, devils hand on your shoulder, making sure that you're safe with him, and you're the one that he'll keep more safely for your soul is his blessing. Turn red from fright and turn deep from the pit and say that you're alone. Though they know that's wrong, the demons will always keep an eye on you making sure that you're safe and that you're soul is delivered to the devil. Rest now, just close your eyes and think about the things in life for you will only have them once. Sleep now that you know you're safe. Die now for it's your time to go to the pit. Love me, hate me, hit me, bleed for me, anyway that you like, anyway that you hate. Say that you love me though deep down you know it's not true. Sing that song that you have in your mind if that makes you sure that you will not fall upon my hands. Care to say to me goodbye? For the trip is long and though you will not be aware of it you will be thinking about what you missed for I once done that and now I deeply regret for all the things that I didn't said to you. Go to the pit and join me in the deep. Say that you're with me once more and that you can be sure that nothings forever except for death and for the pit. For whom do they march, when rain is falling and their bodies are in sacred hands? Screaming, even crying, there they march, there they fall and there they will know the meaning of life itself upon the lips of Death. March to the pit soldiers and say that you're alone.

Sin number 1

As I look to the sky and see the clouds moving in towards the sun, darkness already planted in my heart for your loss and emptiness feeling me from toe to the extreme of my fingers. I like to think that someday you'll come back and the darkness in my heart gets your sunshine and leaves just letting you take over. Other times I just think that there's no other choice but to leave the darkness and pain eat me alive, unaware of the pain that it's coming my way.
For it's coming just as I know that you'll keep me alive and that the sun shines. Love is a struggle, no question, but it's only a way to the only road you'll ever recognize and know well: Death. Yes I like to think that I'm his son for mortal things cannot hit me or hurt me so I wait until it comes. And yes I've killed you when I said that final and painful word: goodbye. If it has hurt you, you can be sure that it has hurt me twice as more. For seeing you leave through that door, crying and hardly breathing, it has done to me a deep cut in my black heart, a cut that I thought that only my "father" could do to me. I still want to feel your body and to touch your soul but now you're so distant that I think that there's no more hope. Once I tried to contact you but I didn't had the guts to keep the call so I hung. I felt like killing myself and believe me when I say that I almost did it.
Damn those doors, that can't seem to shut and take the pain with them. Love is saying that pain does not exist but there's a shadow in it that I can't recognize. I hope it's you though nothing on this little earth can compare or look like you. Baby I can see trough minds, I can read thoughts but I can't contact you. Without that why should I live. Just to sin again?? Therefore sin is my life and without it I'm left with you or with the pain that I forced you to leave upon me.
Close the damn door and close it well for I'll be in the corner of my heart where there's the light of hope that I have on speaking with you again.
March until sun light defenders of the truth for I'm not worthy of living and I don't want it either. Pierce me with your steaks, arrows and swords until I die for that is my will since I don't have you. Leave scars on my body so no one can recognize me when I'm dead and they treat me like that I am. Love is still saying that everything's alright but there's still the shadow that I can't recognize. Until we meet again.